I think it’s safe to say that over the past month or so I’ve been juggling a lot of balls. Between moving house, trying to work, housework, managing life admin and keeping two small humans alive, I’ve been pretty overwhelmed, to put it mildly.
The old me would have managed this life like a pro, but I’m not the old me anymore. I’m the Parent version of me and even two years on, now with two babies, I’m still really struggling to find a healthy balance between parenting and just getting through life.
I’m constantly fretting, planning, rushing, thinking, stressing…never pausing and I’m missing things.
When you’re juggling so much, you never feel as if you’re doing anything well. You’re just muddling through each day and therefore you tend to focus on the negative, rather than all of the amazing things that are happening right in front of you.
I don’t feel as if I’m appreciating the now as much as I should be so it’s time to refocus.
I want to start appreciating the little things again. Those little things that are in fact big moments that keep me going through the every day. Those moments that I know I’ll forget in years to come. It’s these moments that keep us sane as mothers. The moments that make up for all the other shite balls of chaos that are constantly weighing us down and being smothered on our shoulders and in your hair that you’d been waiting all week to clean.
So in the name of being positive and present, here are the Little Things, that have got me through this week.
It’s The Little Things…Elsie Belle
You said ‘I Love You, Mummy’
It’s the moment practically all parents wait patiently for, along with the first hug, kiss and when you finally move out one day. You make such an emphasis on the word you and everytime you say it, I’m pretty sure that my heart stops for a second.
Mummy Me Best Friend
They say that parents should be parents and not friends with their kids, but I don’t believe this for one second. Friends come and go throughout the years and so I hope more than anything in the world that you will always want to confide, trust and reach out to me as both your mother and your best friend my darling girl.
Oh! Dear, dear God!
We have absolutely no idea where this has come from, but you say it everytime you drop something. It’s hilarious and even though it’s not particularly polite, for the most part, no one really knows what you’re saying except us. So for the time being, until you start saying ‘Oh crap bags‘, or something worse when you drop something, we’ll let this one slide.
It’s The Little Things…Billie Rose
Your Magical Smile
You had your 16-week injections this week. We’ll try to forget the chaos that surrounded this experience and just remember what the nurse said to me. With each jab, after your initial cry, you still mustered your beautiful smile at the nurse. She said that in all her years of doing immunisations, she had never before had a baby smile at her afterwards. Your beautiful smile projects a magical aura that makes people happy Billie baby and it makes us very proud.
The way you kick your arms and legs in the bath. You absolutely love your bath time. You always have and it’s another example of the way you make life so much calmer and lovelier. Your chubby little arms and legs go crazy as soon as you enter the water. At the end of each chaotic and messy day, it never fails to make smile.
Baby Wants Boob
We’re still breastfeeding. No one is more surprised than me that we are doing so well with it. You cup my boob like it’s a bottle and once you’re settled you grab my hand until you’re full and content. I’m not sure how long this will last, so for now, I’m cherishing our feeding times and having you so close and happy.
Thank you for these little moments girlies. As much as you’re making me crack, you’re also making me so happy and proud to be your Mumma.